August First

Hello! So a few things happened August first! Quite a few things actually. AHah. So lets get to it!
     FIrst! My friend Morgan was over, and we stood up till five A.M. like crazy people! Haha. We had a great time though, and practically just talked for 4 straight hours. About everything. Then we actually went to bed! Shocking, I know! But when we got up, we dressed and showered. Then left to go get our schedules for school! Its pretty terrifying that we are now eighth graders. I am going into denial! I swear, its not right. I am now one of those big scary eighth graders. Haha. And next year I go into High School!!!!! And my brother is a senior in high school now. I still cannot believe it!
But my schedule, in case you were curious, is...
1st period- Honors Geometry
2nd period- Spanish (on A-Days)
                    Theater (on b days)
3rd period- Social Studies
             ~lunch~
4th period- Ac Lab
5th period- Science
6th period- Advanced Lanuage Arts
           Tah dah! And I have met all my teachers, and they seem pretty amazing! And everybody tells me my Social Studies (  who is also my Ac lab tacher) is the best! So I am excited, but I also dont want to summer to end. I will miss the freedom of sleeping in! Haha. But it will be nice to see everyone again.
         Another thing that happened August first! Tyria texted me, and asked me if she was forgiven. And you know what? I was sick and tired of hating her, and so I forgave her. And I would have wanted her to forgive me, if the situation was reversed. So I have talked to her wuite a bit, and shes in my pod, but we dont have any classes with her. I think this will be a good thing. Not to mention, I feel a lot better, because even my dreams kept telling me to forgive her. So, yeah.  Forgive and forget.
        Then, later on that day, my mom must have gone to the courthouse, to file custody papers. the reason being, Ben is living full time with my mom, and I also want to change the agreement. NOt to mention, my father has not been paying enough child support, for a long time now. And my mom is sick of it, and she decided to go back for both custody, and child support. Now I dont know whats going to happen, who, if anyone, I will have to talk to. And I am nervous. And I know I might feel guilty afterwards. But I want to change things, and I know I do. But he is my dad. I dont want to make things more bitter than now. Not that I am going to change how I view my dad, but how he views me. I hope this will be a good thing. I do.
         Finally, on August first, I got to meet my teachers! Blahh. School starts Monday and it's the scariest thing ever! I am completely not ready! Haha, but I think I am going to absolutely ADORE my teachers! I think my science teacher will be my favorite, because she is really dorky, and fun. I can tell she LOVES what she does. But I think this year, finally, I am going to have great teachers, and hopefully a drama-free year. I am kinda excited. Even though I will not admit it to anyone else! Haha.
          Overall, Wednsday, was a great day. And I have grown up so fast! I AM growing up so fast! I cannot believe it. Next year, its just going to be my mom and me. Last year just flew by, it was insane. And I have this gut feeling this year is going to go by even faster. Aside from the first week of school. Haha.
            Well, I gotta go! But have a great school year!






             Love, your old blogger,
            Audrey! :)

Now for my Family Complications

Hello!          I havemt really talked about the situation with my dad. My brother stopped coming over to my dads house, and I tried, but it didnt work out. Instead I had to go to counseling with my father, where he lied, and again tried manipulating me. But thats a whole different story. So my brother doesnt come over, and my sister has kinda sorta cut ties with my dad because he isnt attempting to help with college or anything. Not to mention this giant house my dad bought. its not like we need it anymore, and its not like they can afford it. They are borrowing the money from Becca's mom. And maybe I am crazy, but I think that they should not have bought the house, but I cant complain really, because I benefit from it. Though I still wish he would attempt to help Ben with Ben's car, and Emily with college, and even help my mom out. I connot do naything about it, so it will be what it is.
                 Another issue I am having with my dad is about Alex. My dad doesnt really seem to like Alex, and has a bit of a.. cold shoudler. One of my oolder friends said it is probably because subconsciously he doesnt want to lose me to another, some could argue, more supportive male figure. And that makes a bit of sense, my dad being controling. I just wish he could find some way to be more, whats the word... respectful? I guess you could say that. I tell myself I dont want or need my dads approval, but, deep down, I wish I could have it.
               I would also like to share some extended family drama. this happened a while back ,but its kinda crazy. My Aunt Tara and her kids, who are one of the few people we talk to on my moms side of the familia. Tara's ex husband Steve, showed up to my cousin Abby's birthday party drunk as can be. He harassed some of the teenage girls there for Abby. Tara told Steve to leave, along with Abby's sister Ashley and Megan. While getting Steve to the car, Megan and Tara were pushed down by Steve, and he drove off. Ashley followed him to make sure he got home safely, and triend to talk to him, but he pushed her down. The next day Tara's tires were slashed. My mom called the police because Tara refused to, and  I have been at my dads house so I do not know what has happened.
               

                  Now honestly, I am really tired, so I am going to go. Plus I cannot think of anything else important. So, goodbye!

           

Love,

Audrey

Continuing with my update!

Alrighty. So I left off on a little of a cliff-hanger you could say with my last post. So I am going to continue another story of drama. This one involves my almost-nine month relationship.

        Back Story: There is this girl Lexy who I swear has dated almost every guy in our grade. ( I am going into 8th grade) and she was kinda, sorta my friend. More of an aquaintence you could say. About a week or so ago while Alex was on vacation, he kept getting texs and Facebook messages from her. (And I am trying to be very mature and to the point here, haha. ) Lexy had told Alex that she liked him blah blah blah. Alex told her to just stop. So done. Probelm solved, right? Nope! Haha. Lexy asked Alex a week or so later that she wanted Alex to break up with me, and go out with her. Of course me being me, I flipped out on Lexy, BIG TIME, and she said she would stop, etc, etc, etc.

           Anyways! Now time for the big stuff.  A day or two afterwards, on Sunday the 8th I believe. First,  Igot a text from Alex, saying something along the lines of, : If you say yes, I wont tell my girlfriend, and you cant either." So I immediately freaked out thinking the worst, and then I called him. He didnt pick up. So about 15, 20 minutes later, Lexy texted me and said that Alex asked her out, and if she said yes he would dump me basically. Now Lexy isnt very trustable, but I was scared, so I believed her. I then sent 14 messages, one message on facebook, and 4 calls to Alex. I talked to Alex and my friend Rachel. Who calmedme down. Rachel is a really great friend eve if I havent known her for a year.Anyways, finally, two hours later Alex called me back. I couldnt really talk, I kept mixing up my words. He didnt understand what I was saying, so Alex told me to just text him.

             I found out Lexy is a complete liar. And I had my suspicions throughout this whole mess. And the  reason I got the text fro mAlex was because he was leaving Michigian. He was going to come home, surprise me by showing up at my house, and yeah. That text was meant for his dad. Whom I asked to make sure this was all true. Finally, the reason hewasnt responding. Becaus ehe was leaving Michigian, he lost coverage on his phone. So no texting or phone calls for him. Haha.

           Now the whole thing is resolved, and today Is my 9 month anniversary. Which is quite a lot for the 7th (now 8th) grade. Ironically on Friday the 13th. Again.

           Alrighty. So this coming Monday, I am leaving for vacation, so I might not blog a lot from Monday to Staurday. But no fear! I will continue to blog before and after I get back! I believe we are going to Six Flags, and the Beach and a couple other things Texas has to offer. My grandpa has a condo up there, but there is no family up there. We are going to get away. Its supposed to be a no-stress easy-going vacation. Which I hope works.
    
         Another thing! I have become recently obsessed with owls (and eyes, but thats no new news). So I got this awesome backpack with owls all over it. here it is:

I think it is absolutely amazing, but that might just be me.

              The weirdests thing has been happening this weekend, since Thursday. Its been storming!!! Not monsoons, but actual storms! Completely out of the ordinary in Arizona. In Maryland, it stormed all the time. And it is supposed to keep storming every night till Sunday or Monday. One night I opened my window, stuck my head out my window, and just watched the lightning, and smelled the rain. It was one of those really peaceful moments you dont want to forget.

            I hate to go but I have to go get ready for Salt River Tubing! IF you have any questions, comment or email me! Thanks for reading! Untill next time!

Love, Your Blogger,

Audrey

Update!

                 I know it has been more than forever since I last posted,  but I am here now, and that's all that matters right? Recently a lot of things have been going through my head, so I wanted to share them.
                 Alright. Drama time. So you remember Tyria? Towards the end of school, maybe the last month or so, she was acting very rude to my other friend Morgan, and of course myself. She being typical seventh grade girls, we started ignoring her, and she did the same to us. And one afternoon (all over text of course) she asked me why I was mad. I told her, the truth. She suggested that because this was happening a lot recently, we shouldnt be friends. This has happened before, a couple of times, and of course she said it differently, and I was relieved you know? She had been causing me a lot of pain, and  I think honestly, I couldnt handle it. I didnt want to. So then the time came when she said she was sorry and didnt mean it, blah blah blah. Again, over text, which is very rude in my opinnion. And because this has happened before, I didnt 'makeup' with her. This happened a couple of times. We talked in person once, where we basically decided to be friends, but never as close as we were again. Tah dah! All better right? Not exactly.
                  A good friend of mine Jesse, appearently talked to her, and it being junior high, he asked why she didnt sit with us. Jesse then said that she called me and Morgan bitches. typical. But after the conversation we had 2 days before this diaster, I was extremely angry. She found out I knew, and told me, "Its not the full story". Again over text. She then continued to say that she was joking when she told all 5 people that. Which doesnt make sense to me. Oh well. So now, we dont talk, I sometimes still cry when I see the pictures, or hear a story. Losing a friend is still painful, even if it was for the best. And I have had my doubts about myself, because this has happened before, a couple of times. But my mom has explained to me that most girls, and people, change throughout middle school, and you keep very little of your friends. Which is true.
                  That was one story of drama. I have another big story, but because it happened last Sunday, its still a little raw, and I honestly, I dont really want to type any longer. Haha. Well thanks guys. I am sorry I havent blogged much, but I am still here. And I think I am going to pick this back up again. :)

                Keep on keepin on guys! Thanks again for reading!

Your blogger,

Audrey

On our way.....

We are on our way. Our journey, will be a tough one and it will test everything. My brother is going to counseling. The reason- to hopefully leave my dad's house. I cant call it my home anymore. Ever since Becca has been here, life has changed. I am not happy here, nor my brother. Its hard. I love my dad, dont get me wrong, but i cannot live like this anymore. It's not like I am going to shut him out. I just wont be staying with this schedule. If we can make it. But my brother has been very unhappy, and we just aren't our normally selves here. Its like your an outcast in your own house. I cant say anything to explain why or how I feel this way. It is just how it is. I am proud of my brother for doing this, finally putting this idea into action. Thought I ought to share this.


                     Love,
                          Audrey

221 Pageviews!!!!

I am very excited about this accomplishment! 200+ pageviews! Thank you guys for being here for me, and sticking with me. It means a lot to me. Just wanted to share this with you guys, and thank you.




           Love,
             Audrey

A Book

Hey guys. Long time, no write!!! But I can onlystay for a little while, so I will get straight to the point. I am writing or attempting to write a story or book. It is medival, and I am not expecting it to go anywhere. But It is always fun to write just for yourself. So here is a little smaple, the first little bit of it.

Living in Helger is like living in the river where everyone bathes. No one respects you. Being a twelve year-old girl in Riften is hard enough. Everyone but the cave trolls and the cave men that have learned to live in peace with the trolls look down on us. Yet again, the trolls are too stupid to understand we are the worst of the worst. Everyone else sees a poor little town, with misfits and gypsies, not the beautiful self-sustaining town with the most fascinating people, and people who don’t care if you are a caveman or a king, that I see. We have our own mills, farms, trade posts, inns, lumber yards, blacksmiths, and stables. Even the poor hag who gives out readings to desperate men who are in need of an answer, is somewhat respected. To me, Helger is an interesting place, full of adventure and mysteries.

“Scarlett, stop your stupid writings. Hurry on now and get your work done!” My papa says. He was one of the most respected men in Riften, a great leader, until her moved here with my mamma. Now everyone spits on his face, and tells him he is a traitor. But here in Helger, he is the wisest of them all. Alvid the Wise they call him.

“Yes papa.” I cannot say no to him. For ever since my mamma, Rosia, left on her journey to the land of the elves, he has been full of longing and sadness. He said she needed answers, to what, I do not know. But now, I must make sure he does not do anything reckless and unwise. But now, as the only woman in the house, I have my duty to cook and clean. My father insists I learn to read, write, and fight so I will be prepared when this war erupts. Therefore, he has me train with a handsome lad, Gale, every day. Gale is a nice, witty, man with a big heart. But he is much too old. It’s a shame really. All the men that are my age, have no proper education as I must, or are too full of themselves they order everyone around like they are wenches. And I refuse to marry or consider marrying a dumb-witted fool like that.

Well, thats all I will show. I got to get off to bed. I will try and blog tomorrow. tell me what you think about it, or the concept i should sya. Thanks guys.


           Love, Your Blogger,
                   Audrey