Bad Day

Ever get that feeling you just want to break down and cry? Well, currently I feel like doing that. No rhyme or reason, just do. Today really wasnt that bad. Just done with everything I guess. Thank god for music. I would be dead right now without it ( figuritivly). I didnt go to school today, because my cousins are in town. But my I had to go to my dads house. He is absolutely driving me insane. I cant help but try and remember before Becca. What or who would I be? I still dont know. And for some reason its antagonizing me. I cant stop thinking when I want to just stop thinking. Questions with no answers keep bouncing around in my head. I hate it. And not to mention, I havent been a very good friend to Tyria recently and thats nagging at me. Also, I cant stop thinking about Alex and what will happen. Thinking is horrible. At least right now. I just want to lay down and empty all my thoughts. Have soneone organize mmy thoughts while I sleep. Maybe its just the day, or maybe its the house im in. BUt today, is just not a good day. i just want ti think about the now, not the tommorrow like I am right now. Sorry about the depressing post, just needed to get that out there. Thanks guys, for everything.



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                Audrey

New Blog!!!

I decided to create a new blog, called   The Life Of Music!!!! It is all about art, music, theatre, and any other art-type stuff!!! Check it out! leave some comments! Give me Advice/Ideas!!!!!!! Just wanted to let you know!!!!!




                                      Love, Your Blogger,
                                              Audrey

Happiness

I am sitting outside a hot chocolate right by me(I hate the taste of coffee) looking at the moon, enjoying the cooler weather, and I am happy. The happiest I have been in months. You are probably wondering why, and I will tell you, I just need to find out where to start. Ahh the Improv show is a good place. I tried out for a Improv show my theatre teacher does every year, and I made it. Well, sort of anyways, an alternate really. Doing the 2 short weeks( 3 days of an hour of practice) I met a few people. Two people in particular. One was Alex and Noah. Now Alex, well we had a great time together. A lot of laughs and we made an effort (being in different pods) to talk to each other. Well, over fall break, we texted each other a lot. We kept texting and talking and one day, he called me. I knew this was coming, I mean, we had already confessed about "liking each other" (I am not a big fan of that phrase) Well, he "asked me out". I said yes, but there was a time of doubt. Now for the stupid middle school drama. He had dated a girl for eleven months and had a hard ending. I didn't ask for much Else, because I could tell it wasn't easy to talk about it. So he was worried about the end. Drama over. Anyways, we have talked and hugged and been together for a while. Everyone in my family knows, and I am glad about it. I don't remember the exact date, but I do know the first day he told me he loved me. 11-1-11. A day to remember. We have gone to a DV game (high school football game) and it was a  lot of fun. And no we were not alone. So this Thursday, we will go to another game, with some friends. I can't wait.
Now that we are up to date, I will tell you a little more about the game. We sat next to each other. At first it was awkward. But slowly, we began to touch arms. When I finally got enough courage I put my head on his shoulder. We laughed and joked along with everyone else. It was amazing. And soon, we just looked at each other and stared into each others eyes. At first I tried to make it less awkward for everyone else and joked around. Then, soon I just stared back. It was surreal. Now whenever I close my eyes, before I fall asleep I see Alex's eyes. I can't get him out of my mind.
Enough about Alex, lets explain some other parts of my happiness. Tyria and I have been growing even closer. She will also be going to the game. I never would have guessed we have the same beliefs and feelings about the way people act and such. Even though Gabby and Erisa are as annoying as ever, we laugh about it. Find it ridiculous.
Even though it seems weird even to me, my father's house has been less of a struggle. Even though struggle isn't the right word. I have been able to disregard anything that will put me down. It is relieving.
The final thing is, ice hockey. My mom has found an Ice Hockey team/group, that is all girls and non-travel!!! I am so excited and have everything I need. I start this Sunday. I am jumping up and down from excitement!!
Well, all my stuff have added up to a happiness. A pure happiness that I haven't felt in a while. I have no worries. Like the Lion King. A worry free, philosphy!! But, it isn't I won't follow that for the rest of my life. Well, I just wanted to catch up and say whats on my mind.






                                          Love, Your Blogger,
                                                       Audrey

Happiness

Lately I have been really busy but happy. We have been going to a bunch of concerts ( the Foo Fighters and Taylor Swift) Also, I have been growing closer to my best friend, Tyria. Even though school is getting a bit harder, its still fun. I have met new people thanks to my being in an Improv show my school did. It was funny, and a lot of fun. I met a guy named Alex, and he is amazing. He is tall, shy (but speaks up when he needs to), sensitive, caring, and HILARIOUS!!!!!!!! It is horrible that I am in a different pod than him. Along with Tyria. I was orignally supposed to be in Pod B as they are, but they messed up my schedule. As long as I am in the same pod as Tyria and mos of my friends I am good. But, I have been pretty good. Few things other than school going on. Now that I think about it, I can't think of anything to be for Halloween! Any Ideas?? Well, I haven't got anything else to say, so I am going to cut this shorter than my usual post, but fear not! I will try to be back soon.







       Love, your blogger,
            Audrey

First Poetry

Well, I thought I might as well jump on the band wagon, because everyone does some poetry. It might not be that good, and I haven't planned this out or anything. Just off the top of my mind.
              The Way Of Life
The twisting staircase of life,
A dark, tragic way,
But the memory of the past,
Will lead the way,
But the way I see it,
The dark tragic way,
Only brings us where we are today,
the colors, the light, will give us hope,
Until we see the glowing light,
A great glowing beacon,
Clearing away the darkness,
With our own thoughts.

Well, there she is. I am not very good at poetry, but I thought I would give it a try. Thank you all the blogs I follow, I have been reading, and you gave me the inspiration. Please post any feedback, good or bad, I want to get better. It might be fun! Haha, Good night everyone.

Random Urge to Blog

Well, tonight out of the blue, I had the urge to write. Well alright not really out of the blue, I may or may not have been reading through my sisters very old diary (by very old i mean 3 or more years old) and it made me want to right. Back then, my sister was very depressed. She was being picked on for being a "fatty", and for being "emo", her best friend was trying to stop cutting herself, and much more, that I vaguely remember. But now, I feel like I have to write, to vent, a.k.a. take a deep breath and chill. It has been awhile since I last blogged, and I blame school. Seventh grade is so much harder. Now I really miss sixth grade. But lifes life and I gotta keep moving on! UPDATES! My sister moved into her dorm at college today, and I am going to see her Saturday. spanish class is going good, and to help me with pronunciation, I am going to record all the classes, being my nerdy self. I am moving into my sisters room, tomorrow, and my best friend is going to help me. I am at my fathers again, but, it isnt going to bad. my babysitting is going into affect, and making me even more busy. but some how, I am balancing it all, and staying calm. Last year I would've freaked. Haha.
And now, i feel like I am about to fall aleep so I will continue this post later!! Pinkie swear.




                           Love, your blogger,
                            Audrey!!!

School

I start school tomorrow, at 9:00am, which is better than 8:11 like last year. I am not really excited, but still kinda am. My best friend is in a different Pod (you have all your core classes in one area, with only the people in your pod) And we will barely get to see each other. Again this year, they messed up schedule, so for English 6th period, I am going into a different pod. This year, I also got really good electives, FACS (Home Economics), Spanish, and Theater. I hope that this year goes good, epically because my best Friend isn't here, and Gabby L. and I think Erisa is in it too. But,  I do know a lot of people in my pod. And most of my teachers seem very nice. Sorry to cut this short But i ought to get ready for school, and get my hair done.




              Love,Your Blogger,
                    Audrey