Boredom

I hate being bored.I feel so. . . bored. It is just a horrible feeling. I cant describe it. Have you ever heard that curiosity is cure for boredom. I would have to disagree. Sometimes you just cant be curious when your bored. It just doesn't work. Okay i know this a totally off subject but, why cant people just be honest. Like saying you don't like some one. Its like that one movie. UGH! what is it? The one where the world always says what comes to mind, like it is impossible not to, and then this one guy made a lie about god and stuff. so funny and wrong. Now that is going to bug me.Anyway it is not worth pretended you are friends with some one. It just causes drama. And i despise drama more than anything in the whole wide world besides the people that cause it.
That brings me to my drama, ahhh wonderful right?? no. Okay so i know this girl who is kind of stuck up and snotty.She would always act pissed off at me and my friend, and then ask "Are you guys mad at me? You seem like it". And one day we got tired and like were "No. but you know what is funny? You always act mad at us ask us the same old question". It is like she is searching for some reason to piss us off. And then it happens again and again. Then one day i got tired and just stopped talking to her.She talked to the school counselor and went then the school counselor called in my best friend. I thought We were going to get suspended, or something. And later that day I had to sit somewhere else at lunch, and guess who she was sitting by. I girl who used to be friends with, a girl who she hated with all her heart. And she was laughing.I know it sounds ridiculous but it makes me mad i am not really sure why. I think I feel betrayed and just plain old pissed off. I don't know what to do. But enough about me. It is just stupid and retarded. I am truly sorry for ranting. I just want to get things off my chest. I feel much better just talking about it. Or typing. Right now of all times ( the hardest times of my life i would have to say) I am trying to find out about me. Trying to figure everything out.
And a little more about my background. I am 11, almost 12. Hence the stupid drama. My parents are divorced. I hate/ really dislike my dad,Fred. He is very manipulative and yeah.  My mom has been married twice. The second one was horrible. He hated every one. He is an alcoholic and in the border patrol. He made us his "slaves" i guess. He would drink beer all day watching TV, while we where summoned to our rooms and couldn't be loud, after doing chores. Which he got mad about if we missed a spot when we were sweeping, or mad if we vacuumed if he was watching TV. I may be a bit of a drama  queen right now.Anyway. We now live in a different house away from that scum bag, it builds character I guess. Haha. I am a female, if you couldn't tell. I haven't started my period. I have 1 brother, Ben who is 15 almost 16 great brother. I have a 1 sister,Emily, who is 18 graduating high school soon. And a have a wonderful mom,Carrie. She is a Nurse working 2 jobs. An outstanding mom and person. And my mom has a boy friend,Kendall. He is so funny and laid back.My family is the most important thing in the whole wide world. We are all very 'non-judging' as my mom would say.
Anyway, this blog is to help me let my emotions out and if you don't like that you can close this site and never look at it again. I could honestly care less you follow me. I wouldn't care if I was talking to a robot, it doesn't matter. I am doing this for my own good, and in the end, I might help other people. I don't know what is going to happen in the next 5 years. I don't even know what high school i am going to. I will let things play out the way they are supposed to. I don't believe in fate i guess, but I do believe that everything happens for a reason.
ON that note in believing. I don't know if I believe in god, or anything in that matter. I do believe in Karma. But that is how i feel. I have been down that die hard Christan chic and it doesn't work for me. i am not feeling it.
so anyways go ahead, you can post and stuff. Answer the question on the right, I think. the question is to figure out if most peoples favorite color is blue. yeah stupid i know, but Whatever. And if you like this blog me and my life even if that sounds really creepy. And tell people, that can never hurt. Thank you anyone that is listening or reading for reading.


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